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i'm here. it took a while, a long while. it wasn't any over-emotional scene at the airport. i have always imagined that first moment when i see them will be very very intense. it wasn't; it was calm, exciting but nothing too crazy. i guess it is the effect of the years that have passed by. i feel a little old.

i had a serious jet-lag. it took me about three days to adjust to this time difference. and last night i finally slept like normal people. but it's 4:32am again and i am up...

the prices are shockingly expensive. they are almost as much as new york. i paid about 4 bucks for three scoops of ice cream last night, ridiculous...other than that, things are not too different. they are, but in a way, they are exactly the same.

the best part is to be home on the new year's day. i had a blast. it was like old old times. all my parents' friends, all the people i love like family. it was good to be a part of something familiar, something you belong to, something you cherish. i didn't feel like i was missed all that much. i felt like life went on, not too drastically different for anyone. they missed me for a bit, and then it was like i've never been there. surprisingly that doesn't bother me at all. in a way i feel good about it. i admire this strength in people to adjust to new things. i did the same thing, and it made me a lot happier compared to when i used to cling to my old memories.

we went to a party last night. i remembered the kind of fun we used to have. the stupid little jokes, conversations and flirting. it is strange how unfamiliar it all was, and how familiar at the same time. i had a really good time. i feel very good. although i don't think i want to come back and live here, i feel like i belong to this place and i like this place. and i like where i live now as well. if that makes sense.